For the past 34 years I've had the same ritual. At around 9:30 pm I sit quietly for a moment and remember my mom. She was 56 when she died ... the age I am now.
Looking at the unfinished graphic above, I wonder how my life might have been different had she lived. Would I be living in DC, or would I have stayed in Indiana? What career path would I have followed? How would my life be different?
I'll never know.
What I do know is that she was my best friend, and I still miss her dearly.
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What a thought provoking post and an amazing graphic to go with it.
I will hold these words and thoughts - and you dear BAC, very much in my heart today.
You brought a tear to my heart. As I remember my mom, I think of you and yours. I have a very clear picture of your mom in my brain...all from your heart to my ears. I see you(kid Corbin) hanging out as your mom does a neighbor's hair and offers words of comfort & advice for whatever crisis is brewing in that neighobor's life. And, I remeber my mother. We had a passionate wonderful, stormy,...and as she faded off into... dementia, peaceful relationship. Still so many more questions I wish I had asked her. Love you Beth.
Rosie
It's such a shame to lose a parent at such a young age. You and MathMan have that in common, you know. It's hard not to wonder how things might be different if we had more time with our loved ones.
Hugs to you, Beth.
No matter what you would have done, your mom would had been proud of you. Indiana or DC, it doesn't matter. I know you'd still be you. **hugs**
Thanks for your thoughts.
BAC
i know for a fact that mom would have been proud of beth. she and beth were very close, and shared so much.
you would have turned out much the way you already have. intelligent, caring, full of laughter, and righeous anger at people in power who screw up in such a way that it takes others with them.
i miss her too. i came to appreciate her more as i struggled to raise my daughter. i hope i've done half as well with my kid, as mom did with you. love sis
I recently lost my father. I hope that I can honor his memory as well as you have your mother's.
So sorry Dr. Z ... I'm sending you a big hug.
BAC
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